It is a shame I am your lover.

Sunday, January 4, 2009, 00:07

Seventeeeen?

Seven days to my birthday.

I'm gonna be 17 soon, in a week.

Since i'm gonna be seventeen,

why the fck am i feeling so down?

*****

:| SAIKANG LA, CB.

cant believe how much i'm needing you now.

Clearing my mpsan of gross songs (: so that i wont be so happily embarassed when a wrong song is blasted thru the good ole speakers. (think elvis presley's can't help falling in love with you)

so i have a date with my bitches, a dinnerdate at ajisen @ Imm on the 8th. (:!

think i'll ask noel/man/cc out for a mmoviedate kind of thing too (:

and maybe on friday i'll attend amp.friday again, after my long absence of a month plus.

just maybe.

=\?

Scratch that whine out, eliz. so annoying.

(Because forgiving is taking another step out, like going the extra mile)

I've decided: i'm gonna keep my hair long!

if i can stand the heat, as alicia points out.

Oh hoho. working tomorrow ah.

Labels: Amp ^-^, Stan speaking :D, Uncertainties

Tuesday, December 30, 2008, 01:11

Emotions

First, Gladness came by and sat beside my self. soon after having her close by for a long period of time, i began to treat her as part of the deco and no longer treat her with significance- and when she faded away, i didn't realize- until Annoyance came by and sat in her sit.

*****

So i went to malaysia today, went to Tesco, wanted to get some stuffs ( shoes. bag. clothes etc.) but we were in a hurry and did not had time to browse. sad to say. so i came home empty handed.

dad said he'd bring me and sissy to vivo/ plaza sing. if we wanna, tomorrow ( technically, later)

*****

Tsk. cant help but feel a little frustrated. things are not going the way i wanted it to, but fuck, that's life. feeling very low, like underground low. kept my earsplugged onto mpsan's music, hoping to feel a little reprive from my feelings. (yes, too strong a word, wdv.) mind tend to wander when there's silence, and silence is never louder when you're travelling and when you prone to tune out to noise.

i put on a mask, every single day.

eliz be happy. dont think too much, and rest well. oh, and my eyes is getting better too! for anyone wanting to know.

eliz craves for nike hoodie. fox hoodie. ipod. more hoodies. purse. nike tote/ gym/ club bag. cotton on slip slops. sleep. peep toes. tees. jeans. shorts. converse shoes. mushroom soup. pizza hut. pineapple tarts. rainbow socks. ballet flats.

and sambal chaofan.

As easy as one, two, twenty-five.

Steven asked me what's with 25.

I said: because things are never as easy and one, two, three.

Labels: Emorant =\, Hookies., Out., Rant., Songcraze, Stan speaking :D

Thursday, November 20, 2008, 09:37

Because...im swinging on the mood swing.

Because sometimes, no matter how hard you pray, wish, and hope for a change, it'll never happen, because praying, wishing and hoping is not enough, and actions speaks louder than words. if you want things to happen, do it, dammit. dont just say. and moan, or whine to whomever, God or otherwise. it wont work. you think God's a wishing well? well, you think wrong. dont be so dumb to do dumb thing like you do. i mean! think about it yourself. since when do impractical wishes comes true.? TELL ME.

my friend has this japanese figure, it's said that if you make a wish to it, it will come true when it opens its eyes or when a tear drops from it's eyes. maybe you should find a figure like that too.

Because sometimes, messiness is not cute and it gets downright gross and fucking annoying. and if you dont change, no one will do it for you. i know you need a neat scolding from someone, to bloody slap you across the cheeks so that you'll wake up and realize that you're living a LIFE, NOT A FUCKING FERRIS WHEEL. oh, sight seeing, how pretty! hah.

Because time and again i told you, dont do or say things that you'll only regret to say afterwards, you'll bloody regret so much, you'll see how it is, to have people throwing that glance at you and walking away, shaking your head. get the picture? that's when you'll feel like crying, but if you do, i dont think anyone would take the slightest pity.

Because how you treat people shows of your upbringing. like. please. have. manners. say please and thank yous. dont curse infront of adults. be nice to your parents.

Because i know, even as i say these, sometimes i turn the other cheek and may do the same, so what can i do? i'm not perfect. i'm not meant to be.

Dont take offence, whoever.

Labels: Stan speaking :D

Sunday, October 26, 2008, 23:48

Do I, really.?

Some of us are reaching for stardust,
some of us are digging for gold.
-Superman.

Pfft.
Today was a long day. kind of. =\.
sissy woke me up, and made me go to sheng siong with her. bought many food, food for steamboat. from the moment i got up i was B-U-S-Y. and didnt study the whole day! like F! im gonna fail my f-ing O levels la, shit f. oh man. then i woke up too late, missed church AGAIN. Alice is gonna scold me ): damn. so next week, and further on, i'll really try me best to not no show/ late again! goondu wanna wake up for church at 8 still sleep at 5. am i dumb, or what.
yeah yeah and! i did this cool handwriting analysis test thing, which is pretty dang cool, some parts were pretty true, like how i'd flare up only if you provoke me too far, and once i flare up that means you DAI. yes, you.
Yes, and. i really dont wanna fail P.O.A, seeing that i was, at least once, once, an A-student at P.O.A. so i must buck up. and pass very well. ciao, chin chao!
Hmm. i've been blogging very randomly recently. i wonder why.

I BLOODY NEED A HAIRCUT MAN. F YOU, CHICHIFACE!

not refering to anyone in particular *smiles innocently. no, not you, darlin'.

Labels: Churching :0, Rant., Songcraze, Stan speaking :D, Weh random :D

Wednesday, October 1, 2008, 01:56

Third

Hallo, and happy Children's Day, happy Hari Raya, everyone!

rain just got heavier, idk why i'm still online, ha. tomorrow no school *wriggles in delight* so i can like sleep in late. little cute cousins coming over from m.sia, yeah.

I can't wait for friday. i want to end school. now. just get it over and done with la. ):.

My friend's status says this: If someone with multiple personalities threatens to kill himself, is it considered a hostage situation?

Ahh. interesting question ain't it. k bye. I WANT OUT. I WANT A JOB. I WANT TO STUDY W/O DISTRACTION. I WANT TO LOSE MY MIND, HALF'S GONE ANYWAY. I WANT TO BAKE A CAKE LA. STUPID MIXER SPOIL *grumbles* SO OFF TIMING. I HATE YOU!

*Deep breath* oh no. mom's here gtg bye!

Labels: Stan speaking :D

Wednesday, August 20, 2008, 17:06

Flu+Sore throat+ Cough = Annoying low voice.

Hmm. look. it's wednesday. two more days and it's friday. Will be going for Amp. looking forward to it. Adrian will be leading, hope it'll be fun. will try to be early.

Prelims are starting really soon, like next monday marn. damn. dont feel up to examinations. bah.

My throat still hurts. i ate tom yam just now.
Aiya who cares la. i'm drinking pi pa gao like nobody's business leh. almost half the bottle's gone and
i just bought it yesterday. rawr. it's thick and gooey and...damn delicious.

Ni zhe ke jiao lang. eat eat eat. you're just gonna grow fat hor, dont come crying to me later. bull shit!

i love nor hiang. fried and homemade. i love. bye.

Labels: Rant., Stan speaking :D

Friday, August 1, 2008, 15:52

L.E.G.E.N.D

During recess today, i got quite high with alicia and linny. talking about the performance by some shuai men. there's beatboxing too ^-^. then there's a guy with girl girl voice too. then.

DID I MENTION THAT THE WHOLE CLASS' F&N COURSEWORK GOT F-ING REJECTED? HUH? I MEAN, WHAT THE BIG FAT FUCK?

sidetracked. ya . so after school i came homw. ate food and watch disc 2 of i am legend. while eating. but ending like different leh. theatre version, will smith died. OH BTW HE'S THE HOT OKAY. but in this.. rented disc version, he didn't die. his daughter's cute. daddy, look, it's a butterfly. i wanna watch twilight. but edward like not veh shuai leh. abit like. you know. disappointed. i think i got minor split personality leh. i'm gonna die. bye.

I think i'm going to call my split personality.... Stan. cuz i think it should be a guy. cool hor. inspiration from two faces of my girlfriend. Will smith hao ke ai oh. hahaha.

Amp.! woo hoo.

Labels: Amp ^-^, School. :), Stan speaking :D

jolly fine Bandyaids.



	Hi, my name is Your mom. + Archives April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 + Credits Host: Blogger Layout © the bikini boy	Sunday, January 4, 2009, 00:07 Seventeeeen? Seven days to my birthday. I'm gonna be 17 soon, in a week. Since i'm gonna be seventeen, why the fck am i feeling so down? *** :\| SAIKANG LA, CB. cant believe how much i'm needing you now. Clearing my mpsan of gross songs (: so that i wont be so happily embarassed when a wrong song is blasted thru the good ole speakers. (think elvis presley's can't help falling in love with you) so i have a date with my bitches, a dinnerdate at ajisen @ Imm on the 8th. (:! think i'll ask noel/man/cc out for a mmoviedate kind of thing too (: and maybe on friday i'll attend amp.friday again, after my long absence of a month plus. just maybe. =\? Scratch that whine out, eliz. so annoying. (Because forgiving is taking another step out, like going the extra mile) I've decided: i'm gonna keep my hair long! if i can stand the heat, as alicia points out. Oh hoho. working tomorrow ah. Labels: Amp ^-^, Stan speaking :D, Uncertainties Tuesday, December 30, 2008, 01:11 Emotions First, Gladness came by and sat beside my self. soon after having her close by for a long period of time, i began to treat her as part of the deco and no longer treat her with significance- and when she faded away, i didn't realize- until Annoyance came by and sat in her sit. * So i went to malaysia today, went to Tesco, wanted to get some stuffs ( shoes. bag. clothes etc.) but we were in a hurry and did not had time to browse. sad to say. so i came home empty handed. dad said he'd bring me and sissy to vivo/ plaza sing. if we wanna, tomorrow ( technically, later) *** Tsk. cant help but feel a little frustrated. things are not going the way i wanted it to, but fuck, that's life. feeling very low, like underground low. kept my earsplugged onto mpsan's music, hoping to feel a little reprive from my feelings. (yes, too strong a word, wdv.) mind tend to wander when there's silence, and silence is never louder when you're travelling and when you prone to tune out to noise. i put on a mask, every single day. eliz be happy. dont think too much, and rest well. oh, and my eyes is getting better too! for anyone wanting to know. eliz craves for nike hoodie. fox hoodie. ipod. more hoodies. purse. nike tote/ gym/ club bag. cotton on slip slops. sleep. peep toes. tees. jeans. shorts. converse shoes. mushroom soup. pizza hut. pineapple tarts. rainbow socks. ballet flats. and sambal chaofan. As easy as one, two, twenty-five. Steven asked me what's with 25. I said: because things are never as easy and one, two, three. Labels: Emorant =\, Hookies., Out., Rant., Songcraze, Stan speaking :D Thursday, November 20, 2008, 09:37 Because...im swinging on the mood swing. Because sometimes, no matter how hard you pray, wish, and hope for a change, it'll never happen, because praying, wishing and hoping is not enough, and actions speaks louder than words. if you want things to happen, do it, dammit. dont just say. and moan, or whine to whomever, God or otherwise. it wont work. you think God's a wishing well? well, you think wrong. dont be so dumb to do dumb thing like you do. i mean! think about it yourself. since when do impractical wishes comes true.? TELL ME. my friend has this japanese figure, it's said that if you make a wish to it, it will come true when it opens its eyes or when a tear drops from it's eyes. maybe you should find a figure like that too. Because sometimes, messiness is not cute and it gets downright gross and fucking annoying. and if you dont change, no one will do it for you. i know you need a neat scolding from someone, to bloody slap you across the cheeks so that you'll wake up and realize that you're living a LIFE, NOT A FUCKING FERRIS WHEEL. oh, sight seeing, how pretty! hah. Because time and again i told you, dont do or say things that you'll only regret to say afterwards, you'll bloody regret so much, you'll see how it is, to have people throwing that glance at you and walking away, shaking your head. get the picture? that's when you'll feel like crying, but if you do, i dont think anyone would take the slightest pity. Because how you treat people shows of your upbringing. like. please. have. manners. say please and thank yous. dont curse infront of adults. be nice to your parents. Because i know, even as i say these, sometimes i turn the other cheek and may do the same, so what can i do? i'm not perfect. i'm not meant to be. Dont take offence, whoever. Labels: Stan speaking :D Sunday, October 26, 2008, 23:48 Do I, really.? Some of us are reaching for stardust, some of us are digging for gold. -Superman. Pfft. Today was a long day. kind of. =\. sissy woke me up, and made me go to sheng siong with her. bought many food, food for steamboat. from the moment i got up i was B-U-S-Y. and didnt study the whole day! like F! im gonna fail my f-ing O levels la, shit f. oh man. then i woke up too late, missed church AGAIN. Alice is gonna scold me ): damn. so next week, and further on, i'll really try me best to not no show/ late again! goondu wanna wake up for church at 8 still sleep at 5. am i dumb, or what. yeah yeah and! i did this cool handwriting analysis test thing, which is pretty dang cool, some parts were pretty true, like how i'd flare up only if you provoke me too far, and once i flare up that means you DAI. yes, you. Yes, and. i really dont wanna fail P.O.A, seeing that i was, at least once, once, an A-student at P.O.A. so i must buck up. and pass very well. ciao, chin chao! Hmm. i've been blogging very randomly recently. i wonder why. I BLOODY NEED A HAIRCUT MAN. F YOU, CHICHIFACE! not refering to anyone in particular smiles innocently. no, not you, darlin'. Labels: Churching :0, Rant., Songcraze, Stan speaking :D, Weh random :D Wednesday, October 1, 2008, 01:56 Third Hallo, and happy Children's Day, happy Hari Raya, everyone! rain just got heavier, idk why i'm still online, ha. tomorrow no school wriggles in delight* so i can like sleep in late. little cute cousins coming over from m.sia, yeah. I can't wait for friday. i want to end school. now. just get it over and done with la. ):. My friend's status says this: If someone with multiple personalities threatens to kill himself, is it considered a hostage situation? Ahh. interesting question ain't it. k bye. I WANT OUT. I WANT A JOB. I WANT TO STUDY W/O DISTRACTION. I WANT TO LOSE MY MIND, HALF'S GONE ANYWAY. I WANT TO BAKE A CAKE LA. STUPID MIXER SPOIL grumbles SO OFF TIMING. I HATE YOU! Deep breath oh no. mom's here gtg bye! Labels: Stan speaking :D Wednesday, August 20, 2008, 17:06 Flu+Sore throat+ Cough = Annoying low voice. Hmm. look. it's wednesday. two more days and it's friday. Will be going for Amp. looking forward to it. Adrian will be leading, hope it'll be fun. will try to be early. Prelims are starting really soon, like next monday marn. damn. dont feel up to examinations. bah. My throat still hurts. i ate tom yam just now. Aiya who cares la. i'm drinking pi pa gao like nobody's business leh. almost half the bottle's gone and i just bought it yesterday. rawr. it's thick and gooey and...damn delicious. Ni zhe ke jiao lang. eat eat eat. you're just gonna grow fat hor, dont come crying to me later. bull shit! i love nor hiang. fried and homemade. i love. bye. Labels: Rant., Stan speaking :D Friday, August 1, 2008, 15:52 L.E.G.E.N.D During recess today, i got quite high with alicia and linny. talking about the performance by some shuai men. there's beatboxing too ^-^. then there's a guy with girl girl voice too. then. DID I MENTION THAT THE WHOLE CLASS' F&N COURSEWORK GOT F-ING REJECTED? HUH? I MEAN, WHAT THE BIG FAT FUCK? sidetracked. ya . so after school i came homw. ate food and watch disc 2 of i am legend. while eating. but ending like different leh. theatre version, will smith died. OH BTW HE'S THE HOT OKAY. but in this.. rented disc version, he didn't die. his daughter's cute. daddy, look, it's a butterfly. i wanna watch twilight. but edward like not veh shuai leh. abit like. you know. disappointed. i think i got minor split personality leh. i'm gonna die. bye. I think i'm going to call my split personality.... Stan. cuz i think it should be a guy. cool hor. inspiration from two faces of my girlfriend. Will smith hao ke ai oh. hahaha. Amp.! woo hoo. Labels: Amp ^-^, School. :), Stan speaking :D