jolly fine Bandyaids.
Monday, July 27, 2009,
22:44
Thousand miles away.
Went to school today, studies pretty productive, for EG1 at least. Went to eat at SIM with Jon and Haiqal after Eltech ended, then we went to find Ms Maisie afterwards. math for two hours, engmec for one hour, and off we went, home. MRT-ed with Jon. went t find Weekit at GP. Talk cock. He returned the library books for me, thank goodness.
Isn't life a bitch?
Feeling like im suffocating, emotions suppressed and voice unheard. if i told you what i wanted to, you'd be hurt and i'll be hurt in the process. why not keep it all to myself and hurt one less person? the feeling im feeling will pass. at the moment i'll just keep quiet and stay withdrawn, and be scolded for my bad-ass attitude and endure further. who care much about how fucked im feeling anyway? talk to the walls.
Labels: Emorant =\
Sunday, July 26, 2009,
23:11
Let's drop.
Went to school on a sunday. first.
Beeying's 18th Birthday Chalet last friday! got drunk. :D funnest ever. met her friends, all so nice and friendly. : D went for cousin ASH'S 21st Birthday Chalet @ Downtown East after bee's. took bee's two packets of unopened sting rays to Ash's chalet :B tasteeeeee.
Busily crazy recently.
went to watch HP and the half-blood prince with aly, catch up and bitch as usual. trying t get her t gym with me. t no avail.
had a crazy week. weeks rushing by, and exams closing in. and holidays coming too (yesyesyes) yay to sleeping in again. havent been getting enough sleep, plus im sick with cough+phlegm+fatigue+every symptoms of the latest flu.
Still can believe i got drunk on sat morning. 'go pluck lemons from the lemon trees outside la!' i remembered.
Saw this and dont know what to think of Team Tiller. seriously.
Going to have many extra classes on monday. my lessons are suppose to end at like. one. after that i've got a one hour break, followed by one hour of math, one hour of eltech, and one and half hour of engmec. hiphip hurray?
gotta meet bee, jw, zq for a followup of the presentation on tuesday too.
FUN OR WHAT? i'd take what anyday.
wanted to skip school to rest, alas. extra classes and all. better to not skip.
bought a new bagpack recently anyway! and 5 new tees. so happy. all the more reasons to go to school *psychos self*
today my aunt asked me why can paint fingernails and still happily go to school. SHE THINKS IM STILL IN SECONDARY SCHOOL LA SIAL. my dyed hair not obvious enough. must dye lighter. red maybe. all the more reason to dye hair : D
My mom bought for me Cadbury dream! im in white chocolately heaven. i told my dad: this will be my breakfast, lunch and dinner for a week. just realize how fattening that'll be. but idk why the sudden craving for chocolate anyway. i think cuz i saw this think scary perfect looking chocolate cake that is wrapped in plastik and i cant like.sneak a bite. so im craving. wdv. im raving.
Looking at the two chalets the past two days, i dont think i might open one on my birthday. so scary. catering food arriving late. fights breaking out. stinky toilets. sandy beds. vomit covered floor. booking out early in the morning. no pets allowed laws. fuck it man. unless someone else wanna handle some of that for me, i think i'll be too afraid to do it.
Long post hoh. havent blogged in agez. and im nuaing in my room. so just spitting my thoughts on my keyboard.
I think. i wanna cut my bangs. again. and dye my hair black. and platinum blond somewhere. think.
still thinking.
GAH. BORED. BYE.
Labels: Out., sick :|, Studyinghard, What i want.
Wednesday, July 22, 2009,
22:32
FUCK YOU.
BLOGGER HATES ME.
havent blogged for ages right. today i wanted to do a nice one. then blogger bitched me out. FUCK YOU. if tomorrow it goes back to normal, i might just blog. fuck it.
Labels: Rant.
Monday, July 13, 2009,
00:26
There goes my hero.
Back from Malaysia again (:
Went to the farmhouse again, this time we brought my aunt along. goat's still looking the same, the whole place looks the same, except that fruits were in season. so there's spots of red here and there... rambutans! :D lovelove. i think this trip wasnt as stinky, but fuck, why so many insects?
Kid says hi (:
we found a centipede in the room that the owner had generously opend up to us for free as we had 8 people and booked one room only. then we found a hideous black super large lizard in the former room. my dad and i tried catching it to no avail..it disappeared after 5 minutes of us moving cupboards and all. we went to the waterfall in the noon, and all except mom, aunt and chris jumped into the water.. shiok.
We went to buy a hamster too! The name's poink poink.
^^ Meet the ball of fur.
Love trips as a family. always bonding. memories.
Cant believe i carried my sister on my shoulder for at least 30 seconds while she pick rambutans -.- heavy siak.
.... bloody lazy to blog. need sleep. CIAO.
xxxxx
I know you're good boyfriend material, just.. not mine.
Labels: Happypost, Out., PICTUREZ.
00:25
There goes my hero.
Back from Malaysia again (:
Went to the farmhouse again, this time we brought my aunt along. goat's still looking the same, the whole place looks the same, except that fruits were in season. so there's spots of red here and there... rambutans! :D lovelove. i think this trip wasnt as stinky, but fuck, why so many insects?
we found a centipede in the room that the owner had generously opend up to us for free as we had 8 people and booked one room only. then we found a hideous black super large lizard in the former room. my dad and i tried catching it to no avail..it disappeared after 5 minutes of us moving cupboards and all. we went to the waterfall in the noon, and all except mom, aunt and chris jumped into the water.. shiok.
We went to buy a hamster too! The name's poink poink.
^^ Meet the ball of fur.
Love trips as a family. always bonding. memories.
Cant believe i carried my sister on my shoulder for at least 30 seconds while she pick rambutans -.- heavy siak.
.... bloody lazy to blog. need sleep. CIAO.
xxxxx
Labels: Happypost, Out., PICTUREZ.
00:13
There goes my hero.
Back from Malaysia again (:
Went to the farmhouse again, this time we brought my aunt along. goat's still looking the same, the whole place looks the same, except that fruits were in season. so there's spots of red here and there... rambutans! :D lovelove. i think this trip wasnt as stinky, but fuck, why so many insects?
we found a centipede in the room that the owner had generously opend up to us for free as we had 8 people and booked one room only. then we found a hideous black super large lizard in the former room. my dad and i tried catching it to no avail..it disappeared after 5 minutes of us moving cupboards and all. we went to the waterfall in the noon, and all except mom, aunt and chris jumped into the water.. shiok.
We went to buy a hamster too! The name's poink poink.
^^ Meet the ball of fur.
Love trips as a family. always bonding. memories.
Cant believe i carried my sister on my shoulder for at least 30 seconds while she pick rambutans -.- heavy siak.
.... bloody lazy to blog. need sleep. CIAO.
xxxxx
Monday, July 6, 2009,
00:04
Summer lovin'.
I cant believe. i just got a invite to friendster. gosh.
deleted my a/c last year cuz i got bored.. and hooked onto facebook. i got an invite, gosh. dunno why im so shocked too.
*****
Sunday. the sun peeped out for a while.. and then hide for the rest of the day. what a perfect weather for sleep-ins. went to church at 9 am (trying to kick start back my habit to be a regular church goer.. :}), choir, eat, practice, home by 3 pm. fell asleep while reading (Black Rabbit Summer- Kevin Brooks. try it! pretty good.), and woke up at around 7 i think? :}. then cont'd doing IS project *insert CB face* so tired of it. ours quite cock-up alr lah. i think we either fail, or pass miserably.
*****
Isaac came down to find me about an hour ago, think he was bored out of his skull too. talk cock, then he left. talk about the same old stuffs lah. havent seen him in ages also. he thought that there was no school tomorrow =\. cuz youth day. bullshitter. hahahaa. alamak got work tmr sia. =\. need to chiong. gonna a/c yx to lot 1, then kiakia a while, chiong down for work. BULLZ.
looking for ipod case leh. not the silicon one. i want a leather casing. black or white... or brown. would be ideal :].
Had another weird dream last night. wondering if it's due to stress, that im having such disturbing dreams? hmmmm.
=\. ah well. project. sleep. ciao~
xxxxxxx.
Labels: Booktalk, Churching :0, Dreams, Ngeeann ah., School. :), Songcraze, Studyinghard, What i want., Work :0
Saturday, July 4, 2009,
23:58
Let's stop pretending, okay?
23:59.
Love the new blogsong.
totally /wrist and fun.
im in the weird mood today. feeling sad when i should be happy, feeling just weird.
webcam session with Yuanxing and Kirk.. we the bored.
Kirk with polo, yx with grape, eliz with a smile.
*****
Running away doesnt help, the mentality that it would wont go, the fear at the back of my mind unfading, the memory of you permament. stuck, somehow, weird in the most normal way, not that it make sense anyway, since i was the one who said no. remembering the forgotten. bad dreams makes everything feel weird. negativity sits heavily.
*****
Church tomorrow morning, gonna make it a practice all over again. missing father mike so much. hope he'll visit us somehow, once again. ):.
Labels: Churching :0, Dreams, Emorant =\, PICTUREZ., Songcraze, Uncertainties
Friday, July 3, 2009,
23:09
And th hardest part of living is just taking breaths to stay.
YELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLOW.
:O. First week of skl passed in a breeze. my my. my prediction that skl will close within a few days of opening kind of failed, guess im no fortune teller. FRIDAY LEI. so fast right.
first monday of the eleventh week was quite uncomfortable, feeling the slight nervy feel of first week. BUT i got over that. lessons are pretty boring and complicating, bad combination. and with the wrong.... feel, noone feels like studying. OH AND RIGHT. i passed all my common test subjects! *beams* so happy. Disappointed by the math result, didnt hit the A i was hoping-crossed-fingers-eyes-shut for. BOOOOOOOOOOOL. :/.
Boring ole DEP, speedo teacher. i ditched class for 45 minutes cuz i was bored out of my skulls. i missed 60 minutes of ENGMEC cuz i was hungry. shubeeeeeedoodle.
Aiyo. sian la. Many many assignments, tutorials, projects. jialat jialat.
Weihao's going to tekong!!! ): so sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad. boo lah.
I've been having very creepy negative feel dreams. i once dreamed that my favourite white-grey bag was stained with red ink. another time that all 30 eggs we brought (in a grey tray) were cracked. sometimes it'd be so real that i'd stone for three seconds trying to figure which is reality. serious.
Hold on, before it's too late.
Labels: Dreams, Ngeeann ah., Songcraze, Studyinghard, The Whine