It is a shame I am your lover.

Sunday, August 9, 2009, 00:03

Old Jack & Penelope

I've got a story to share. got it from an email from a friend (:
thought i should share it. kind of dont like forwarding emails much.

The man slowly looked up. This was a woman clearly accustomed to the finer things of life. Her coat was brand new. She looked like she had never missed a meal in her life. His first thought was that she wanted to make fun of him, like so many others had done before.

"Leave me alone," he growled.

To his amazement, the woman continued standing there. She was smiling, her even white teeth displayed in two dazzling rows.

"Are you hungry?" she asked.

"No," he answered sarcastically. "I've just finished dining with the president.. Now go away."

The woman's smile became even broader.

Suddenly the man felt a gentle hand under his arm.

"What are you doing, lady?" the man asked angrily. "I said to leave me alone."

Just then a policeman came up.

"Is there any problem, ma'am?" he asked.

"No problem here, officer," the woman answered. "I'm just trying to get this man to his feet. Will you help me?"

The officer scratched his head. "That's old Jack. He's been a fixture around here for a couple of years. What do you want with him?"

"See that cafeteria over there?" she asked. "I'm going to get him something to eat and get him out of the cold for a while."

"Are you crazy, lady?" old Jack resisted. "I don't want to go in there!" Then he felt strong hands grab his other arm and lift him up.

"Let me go, officer. I didn't do anything.."

"This is a good deal for you, Jack," the officer answered. "Don't blow it."

Finally, and with some difficulty, the woman and the police officer got old Jack into the cafeteria and sat him at a table in a remote corner. It was the middle of the morning, so most of the breakfast crowd had already left and the lunch crowd had yet arrived.

The manager strode across the cafeteria and stood by the table.

"What's going on here, officer?" he asked."What is all this, is this man in trouble?"

"This lady brought this man in here to be fed," the policeman answered.

"Not in here!" the manager replied angrily. "Having a person like that here is bad for business."

Old Jack smiled a toothless grin. "See, lady. I told you so. Now if you'll let me go. I didn't want to come here in the first place."

The woman turned to the cafeteria manager and smiled.

"Sir, are you familiar with Eddy and Associates, the banking firm down the street?"

"Of course I am," the manager answered impatiently. "They hold their weekly meetings in one of my banquet rooms."

"And do you make a good amount of money providing food at these weekly meetings?"

"What business is that of yours?"

"I, sir, am Penelope Eddy, president and CEO of the company."

"Oh..."

The woman smiled again.. "I thought that might make a difference."

She glanced at the cop who was busy stifling a laugh. "Would you like to join us in a cup of coffee and a meal, officer?"

"No thanks, ma'am," the officer replied. "I'm on duty.."

"Then, perhaps, a cup of coffee to go?"

"Yes, ma'am. That would be very nice."

The cafeteria manager turned on his heel.

"I'll get your coffee for you right away, officer."

The officer watched him walk away.
"You certainly put him in his place," he said.

"That was not my intention. Believe it or not, I have a reason for all this."

She sat down at the table across amazed old Jack. She stared at him intently.

"Jack, do you remember me?"

Old Jack searched her face with his old, rheumy eyes. "I think so- I mean, you do look so familiar."

"I'm a little older perhaps," she said. "Maybe I've even filled out more than in my younger days when you worked here, and I came through that very door, cold and hungry."

"Ma'am?" the officer said questioningly. He couldn't believe that such a magnificent looking woman could ever have been hungry.

"I was just out of college," the woman began. "I had come to the city looking for a job, but I couldn't find anything. Finally I was down to my last few cents and had been kicked out of my apartment. I walked the streets for days. It was February and I was cold and nearly starving. I saw this place and walked in, hoping that I could get something to eat."

Jack's face lit up with a smile. "Now I remember," he said.. "I was behind the serving counter. You came up and asked me if you could work for something to eat. I said that it was against company policy."

"I know," the woman continued. "Then you made me the biggest roast beef sandwich that I had ever seen, gave me a cup of coffee, and told me to go over to this very corner table and enjoy it. I was afraid that you would get into trouble. Then, when I looked over and saw you putting money out of your own pockets into the cash register, I knew then, that everything would be all right."

"So you started your own business?" Old Jack said.

"I got a job that very afternoon. I worked my way up. Eventually I started my own business that, with the help of God, prospered..."

She opened her purse and pulled out a business card. "When you are finished here, I want you to pay a visit to a Mr. Lyons. He's the personnel director of my company. I'll go talk to him now and I'm certain he'll find something for you to do around the office."

She smiled. "I think he might even find the funds to give you a little advance so that you can buy some clothes and get a place to live until you get on your feet. If you ever need anything, my door is always open to you."

There were tears in the old man's eyes. "How can I ever thank you?" he asked.

"Don't thank me," the woman answered. "To God goes the glory. He led me to you."

Outside the cafeteria, the officer and the woman paused at the entrance before going their separate ways.

"Thank you for all your help, officer," she said.

"On the contrary, Ms. Eddy," he answered. Thank you. I saw a miracle today, something that I will never forget. And...And thank you for the coffee."

When God leads you to the edge of the cliff, trust Him fully and let go.
Only one of two things will happen, either He'll catch you when you fall, or He'll teach you how to fly.

God is so big He can cover the whole world with his Love, and yet so small He can curl up inside your heart.

God closes doors no man can open & God opens doors no man can close.

Long email. but a nice story.

*****

Went to IMM for lunch-dinner with Steve. was craving for pastamania while working the previous night, and zhixian told me that there is a new outlet at IMM, closest to my house, so i decided to go there. to find that there is no pastamania!!! sad or what. was just mad craving for Chicken cheese salsicca. but ): sad.
so we settled for Cafe cartel. food was alright, serving was huge. only finished half-ish. still got a craving for pastamania. ):.
irritating. anyway.
i really like Singapore's 2009 theme song! go search on imeem.com: what do you see.

and! i just did my nailz. blue and needed t do something to cheer meself up. so im orange!

dont dare to take a close up pict cuz it looks kind of off now. must see tmr. it'll look better.

i also chopped off half my bangs!

was with aly few nights back.. watched UP at JP. good show. catch it! i'm gonna watch it again with steve.

kay. gotta go. math!

Control.

Labels: A Story., Fooding, Out., PICTUREZ., Songcraze, Studyinghard, Work :0

Sunday, July 26, 2009, 23:11

Let's drop.

Went to school on a sunday. first.

Beeying's 18th Birthday Chalet last friday! got drunk. :D funnest ever. met her friends, all so nice and friendly. : D went for cousin ASH'S 21st Birthday Chalet @ Downtown East after bee's. took bee's two packets of unopened sting rays to Ash's chalet :B tasteeeeee.

Busily crazy recently.

went to watch HP and the half-blood prince with aly, catch up and bitch as usual. trying t get her t gym with me. t no avail.

had a crazy week. weeks rushing by, and exams closing in. and holidays coming too (yesyesyes) yay to sleeping in again. havent been getting enough sleep, plus im sick with cough+phlegm+fatigue+every symptoms of the latest flu.

Still can believe i got drunk on sat morning. 'go pluck lemons from the lemon trees outside la!' i remembered.

An Abortion Battle, Fought to the Death

Saw this and dont know what to think of Team Tiller. seriously.

Going to have many extra classes on monday. my lessons are suppose to end at like. one. after that i've got a one hour break, followed by one hour of math, one hour of eltech, and one and half hour of engmec. hiphip hurray?

gotta meet bee, jw, zq for a followup of the presentation on tuesday too.

FUN OR WHAT? i'd take what anyday.

wanted to skip school to rest, alas. extra classes and all. better to not skip.

bought a new bagpack recently anyway! and 5 new tees. so happy. all the more reasons to go to school *psychos self*

today my aunt asked me why can paint fingernails and still happily go to school. SHE THINKS IM STILL IN SECONDARY SCHOOL LA SIAL. my dyed hair not obvious enough. must dye lighter. red maybe. all the more reason to dye hair : D

My mom bought for me Cadbury dream! im in white chocolately heaven. i told my dad: this will be my breakfast, lunch and dinner for a week. just realize how fattening that'll be. but idk why the sudden craving for chocolate anyway. i think cuz i saw this think scary perfect looking chocolate cake that is wrapped in plastik and i cant like.sneak a bite. so im craving. wdv. im raving.

Looking at the two chalets the past two days, i dont think i might open one on my birthday. so scary. catering food arriving late. fights breaking out. stinky toilets. sandy beds. vomit covered floor. booking out early in the morning. no pets allowed laws. fuck it man. unless someone else wanna handle some of that for me, i think i'll be too afraid to do it.

Long post hoh. havent blogged in agez. and im nuaing in my room. so just spitting my thoughts on my keyboard.

I think. i wanna cut my bangs. again. and dye my hair black. and platinum blond somewhere. think.

still thinking.

GAH. BORED. BYE.

Labels: Out., sick :|, Studyinghard, What i want.

Monday, July 13, 2009, 00:26

There goes my hero.

Back from Malaysia again (:

Went to the farmhouse again, this time we brought my aunt along. goat's still looking the same, the whole place looks the same, except that fruits were in season. so there's spots of red here and there... rambutans! :D lovelove. i think this trip wasnt as stinky, but fuck, why so many insects?

Kid says hi (:

we found a centipede in the room that the owner had generously opend up to us for free as we had 8 people and booked one room only. then we found a hideous black super large lizard in the former room. my dad and i tried catching it to no avail..it disappeared after 5 minutes of us moving cupboards and all. we went to the waterfall in the noon, and all except mom, aunt and chris jumped into the water.. shiok.

We went to buy a hamster too! The name's poink poink.

^^ Meet the ball of fur.

Love trips as a family. always bonding. memories.

Cant believe i carried my sister on my shoulder for at least 30 seconds while she pick rambutans -.- heavy siak.

.... bloody lazy to blog. need sleep. CIAO.

xxxxx

I know you're good boyfriend material, just.. not mine.

Labels: Happypost, Out., PICTUREZ.

00:25

There goes my hero.

Back from Malaysia again (:

We went to buy a hamster too! The name's poink poink.

^^ Meet the ball of fur.

Love trips as a family. always bonding. memories.

Cant believe i carried my sister on my shoulder for at least 30 seconds while she pick rambutans -.- heavy siak.

.... bloody lazy to blog. need sleep. CIAO.

xxxxx

I know you're good boyfriend material, just.. not mine.

Labels: Happypost, Out., PICTUREZ.

00:13

There goes my hero.

Back from Malaysia again (:

We went to buy a hamster too! The name's poink poink.

^^ Meet the ball of fur.

Love trips as a family. always bonding. memories.

Cant believe i carried my sister on my shoulder for at least 30 seconds while she pick rambutans -.- heavy siak.

.... bloody lazy to blog. need sleep. CIAO.

xxxxx

I know you're good boyfriend material, just.. not mine.

Labels: Out., PICTUREZ.

Thursday, June 25, 2009, 02:49

let's drop.

Ten days later.

last week of holidays.

assignments are all uncompleted.

week's been crazily packed:

Work after tanning @ Sentosa on Monday.

Work on Tuesday @ Jurong East.

Dipping in the water @ Sentosa on Wednesday, no sun, no tanning.

Wednesday! After Sentosa with Yuanxing, Beeying and her classmates, went to Vivo for dinner. Carl's Junior. went outside to talk. went in again, loo. went to somewhere else to talk. half an hours later, realized that my mobile is not with me. in the mind's eye, i cant even see myself placing the phone on top of the toilet roll thing.... and then walking out freely. CHAOCHEENIANG. I FUCKING LOST MY FUCKING MOBILE FUCKING PHONE.

quite pissed off with myself. thank goodness Beee and Yuanxing was around.

Called Singtel to suspend the line, and they are sending a new sim card over tomorrow evening. efficient innit?

still...

all the contacts. gone gone gone ah. how to get every single one back?

and the text messages. and pictures. songs.

FUNGS.

Gerald,BigMe. said (00:54):
going off to sleep.
need anything except a new phone, call me :>

Jo Jung Eun says (03:02):
jiu de bu chu, sin de bu lai
Eliz ):. lost me mobile. sad fuck. says (03:02):
AHHHA. mei you qian lei.
Eliz ):. lost me mobile. sad fuck. says (03:03):
xin de zhen yang lai?
Jo Jung Eun says (03:04):
HAHA.
use your blain use your blain!

Gerald and Jo Jung Eun. so helpful ):

OH. Jo is Jasmine. what she said is: If old stuffs dont go, new stuffs wont come. i replied no money, how new stuffs come? then the use your blain -.-

SAD LA.

I GO SLIT WRIST AND EMO LIAO. *tiniest glimmer of hope that a kind stranger will return my phone after enjoying going thru' my pictures/ music/ text/ notes. but a kind person wont go thru my mobile, let alone switch it off right? SIGH.

i'm going to burst that glimmer of hope. just wait for my paycheque. i guess.

Labels: Emorant =\, Out., Songcraze

Monday, June 15, 2009, 01:47

Forgotten.. in the most minute way.

I know i havent been blogging right.

CT's over. sigh of relief. prefer this system whereby ct comes first, then holidays. can ROC, literally.

Chris and jerry just got back from thailand a few hours ago!

so glad to have them back. chris dyed her hair, again. cut her hair, i like. tattooed over a previous tattoo on finger, weird but getting used to it.

One week worth of holidays left.

chris brought me three note books, one laptop cooler and skin, a cute elephant tee-shirt, and a bag. brought everyone stuffs. jerry got some voodoo dolls for his classmates.

tired. waiting for isaac's text.

have been party world-ing for two conseg. days, quite tiring. cuz we like to go late-ish, after the guys close the shop, so we always reach ard. 11. then i'll sing... and drink.. and sleep. then vomit... then go home. YEAH. steven, if you're reading this. dont be mad k? i wasnt dying from food poisoning. just alcohol. and water-melon.

reading the lollipop shoes by joanna harris!

started doing shop-front in the day too.. sitting there and collecting dust. made friends along the way too.

way too tired. went to malaysia this morning, got up at 8 after sleeping at 4, not very good. tiring but still... malaysia. i swear on my pinky finger. you feel more relaxed right after you've cleared all the customs and shit. soooompah. (such an old fashioned word. hahahaah.)

Sleep soon i guess. wanna kill isaac already.rah.

Labels: Booktalk, Out., Work :0

Saturday, May 23, 2009, 20:28

But it started with an alright scene.

Moooooooooooooooooooooovie.

NAIGHT AT DER MUSEUM.

It was good! i was expecting myself to fall asleep cuz i had school from 8-5, and work from 6-10. (yes, whole day in the same clothes- except for work. was all sticky and gross, thank you very much.) was also wearing my contacts the whole time, another smack to the forehead to how bady the day had started. i forgot my calculator(smack), my glasses, my notebook. booooo. so i caught this movie half an hour after midnight with the bone. he came over to jurong east to pick me up and we bussed to esplanade and walked to ps. then we walked up 7 escalators. got the tix, the drinks and pops, and off we go. FRONT ROW'S A NECKACHE. but we had th row to ourselves and we stretched out like... nua k. but i couldnt find my comfy position so ): kept shifting around. finished the movie at 2.30-ish, walked to St Andrew's and grabbed a NR5. doozed on the bus.... bus driver was the cool. spinned corners like there's no tomorrow. couldnt really sleep. heh heh. but i prefer this to the morning/afternoon slow pokey drivers. with all the long bus rides, i guess i we spoke quite a lot. we did the LP on the top deck of 97, the PCD, and the works. and we watched TV. HAH.

i got home just before 5am. tired sia. woke up at six pm just now. HEHE.

EH THE MOVIE WAS REALLY GOOD LEH.

Love the new characters and the old too. Bobbing Einsteins, Spacemonkey Able, giant octopus, Napoleon, George Washington, like wow, and the Egyptian prince's big brother keen on overtaking the world.

But there were loop-holes la. dont wna say. dont spoil the movie for you any further.

School was fun, work was fun, movie was great, BYE.

ps:wna go for EE Camp!!!!!!! hey ho lets gooooooooooo.

Labels: Camp:D, Happypost, Out., PICTUREZ., Songcraze, Weh random :D

Sunday, May 17, 2009, 22:22

Two heart beating together.

OI.

What a weekend.

Sheesha at Arab street with schoolmates last friday, pictures on my FB if you wna seeeeeeeeeeee. played truth or dare, so crazy. but frankly quite mild la. wasnt so siao cuz i dont think we were that high. hehe. amazing. after sheesha, we went somewhere else to lepak cuz we were fucking hot at aladdin. so we walked....to city hall. where to exactly, i cant remember. i remember zara. mcflurry. bitching about exboyfriends. HOHO. yuanxing, beeying and me were the only girls, and only chinese. there WAS Kirk too, but he left early (Awwwwwwwwwwwww yuanxingggggggg.)

ANYWAY. funfunfun.

Got home at around midnight i think? then i did laundry. packed the house. the room. did my nails. and slept at 4 AM. SIAO RIGHT. shagged.

Next morning, woke up, prepare for Malaysia and all. and off we go, into the cab. haha. lazy to train/bus and all. went to Queen's (huang hou. IDK WAZZAT IN ENGLISH. my own trslatn!) and got clothes for Xxuan while momma aunt and sissy get mani and pedis. NO FAIR ): BUT my nails are nice too! just dont bring it too close to your face k. :D

Then the dinner at night... was great. relative meetup like that. everyone looking good, chit chat gossip. after the dinner a few of us cousins went for K SESSION. and NEWAY rocks. the manager, Thomas, is my aunt's godson. sooooooo. we got the big room. and vip treatment. and more drinks. Kempai rocks. Thomas so nice. yay. he got us some fruit beer and we were hooked. then he kept asking me to drink. HAHA. he say one person drink very lonely. *chink glass* drink together la. fun. he a/c us for a while, then left for two hours or so, and then came back at 3am. i think. i did several linkin park songs with jeremiah. WALAU. CRAWLING IN MY SKIN SIA. HHAHAAAAA. then we belted Rihanna, no doubt, all those lor. chinese songs a bit hard for me. a lot of mumbling on my part :B

Thomas very cute ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Babelicious bride. wish her all the best! <3.

Labels: Happypost, Out., PICTUREZ., Songcraze

Sunday, April 5, 2009, 21:24

Taking me over.

(;

Back from Farmstay. didum. had mozzie bites on me thigh. everywhere. rain on both days. managed to see the goats, baby and all. pictures!

i was saying 'Jerry, smile!' and he did this smile with his hands. bleh. camshy.

detoured, went to the wet market. there's a pet shop there. if you can spot a hamster there.. right smack in the middle...and a little to the top. (sleeping, so you cant see eyes, in case you were searching.) and right. they sell scorpions and tarantulas. and fighting fishes, cats, dogs, rabbits, guinea pigs (hey, Ah Pui brand!), and mealworms. Yeaaah.

three rooms, we took one. and sixteen (12?) people slept in one room. cool or what. ti-lam FTW. i think we left it quite in order (: hehe.

by the barbeque pit and a cooking gas stove.

big old old old meanass goat. head's been stuck for who knows how long. it's always there.. as far as i've seen it.

Babe goat. two weeks old only! adorable only until it baaaas in your face. IN YOUR FACE.

unripe lychees. cool hor. got durian trees too. apparently in a few months' time they'll all be good to eat! awesome.

cool old things we didnt even sit in. just snapped a picture and we went elsewhere.

mosquito coils that saved our lives k. one in the outdoors, one in the kitchen.. one at the barbeque's.. yeah.

conquering jerry at a game of wuguehpai. FTW. it's not dai di! i'd not teach him dai di lor. (anws if it's dai di die lo. cards suck cardboards.)

Sooo.. a couple of firsts experiences.

First time:

sitting on the steps, watching the rain gradually stop.
chasing turkeys around the field. three turkeys.
watching a spider wrap some ants for supper/ next day's breakfast
watching ants march into the house and steal our food.. shitload of ants.
seeing turkeys fly up into a tree.
listening to malay ghost stories as though there's so normal.. and everywhere.
breaking a spider's web and feeling very sorry about it
watching a spider rebuild its web
witnessing the collection of goats' milk

Yeah. it was a fun trip, no doubt. but a second trip there? hmmm. the stench of goats is really bad. real funky. cant believe aunt actually is contemplating her wedding ceremony there. 'Aiya, smelly also smelly one time mah... once in a lifetime lei... special mah...' all that. what the fuck. sure you want the ceremony remembered as the 'Smelly Goat Place'?

I think not. heh. :}.

Labels: Happypost, Out., PICTUREZ., Songcraze

Monday, March 30, 2009, 18:40

This is my mixtape for you.

Hur. first time the fax machine obeyed me.

Had a dream, a very long and sceneful dream. sceneful. hmm.

yeah anyway. went to get the dream dictionaries and interprete as mucch as i remembered. basically it was the fact that i dreamt of my grandfather for the first time that gave me drive to find the meaning.

gawd. i just almost cried. relating the dream to me momma.

i dreamt of.. a cousin of mine. who likes to collect balls (in the dream, duh). i stole band-aids. like suppose to be 1 for 20cents, i took 2. and paid 20cents. the other shopkeeper somewhat saw but bochap lei. i dreamt of a funfair. i dreamt of a school event. i dreamt that a friend got expelled. the accepted into NP. then i met another friend. and was bloody happy to see her, i hug her and laugh wildly. i dreamt that a friend threatened me and made a cut on my ear, and it bled. i dreamt of a teacher. who had a guinea pig which looked like a skinnier version of porkchop. i dreamt of stealing furnitures.

Basically it's all positive, even the impending death. walau the ear cut means i have to listen to constructive critism lei. imagine. ey, you look fat. slim down. imagine. go and get liposuction. imagine lei. haha. okok. constructive. i'll keep in mind.

nabei. chui ah.

went out for supper with Isaac and Weeyew at midnight. go all the way to eunos there for mee sua.. with all the disgusting pig innards. so i ate something else. then after food. Isaac tell his tale. Weeyew gave.. constructive critism. heh. then go geylang. da kai yen jian kay. walau eh. then after that send Weeyew to his friend's house, Isaac drove me home.. yeah. collapse in bed and slept for 12 hours.

Dreams.. what do they really mean. contrasting meanings. :|.

xoxo.

Where are you now?

Pausing to think, Eliz leaned back and stared straight. 'Monetize' stared right back. What the fuck, she thought, that's something new. forgetting her last thought, her eyes drifted to the pile of books beside her laptop. DREAM DICTIONARY- An A to Z Guide to Understanding Your Subconcious Mind. The Complete Book of DREAMS. The Dream Interpreter. Dictionary of Dreams. Yeah yeah. subcon eh? then she tried to remember a bit more of her dreams. the crying, the fair, the person she was stealing for.. who? the teacher she was pissed of at.. which teacher? Focusing too hard is only making the image off-focus. So she gave up. it'll come to her. Like how a dream once came back to her at a supermarket, standing there, her grasping onto an orange like a life-line. she sort-of zone out for a while, then she remembered where she was. Yeah. it'll be back. Later rather than sooner. She then passed a glance at the papers beside the books. Ahhhh. Poly. Must remember to check enrolment status tomorrow. or the day after. The little sigh escaped her mouth again, telling more than her face would show. a sudden vulnerability overtook her face.. just for a mere second. her face then harden, and with a hard look in her face, she got up and walked away. again.

Labels: Dreams, Fooding, Out., someonelse., Songcraze

Sunday, March 22, 2009, 02:01

Nobody, nobody but you.

Memento mori.

Went to bugis with Alicia today, shag ah. got the hoodie cardi, flats, a grey JD tee, a skinny black cool belt, and.... uh. dont remember. oh yeh. an owl print tee and a dolphin print dress.

Totally regret the dress.

ALICIA! I REGRET THE DRESS!! ):!!!

Ate at HK Restaurant. nothing impressive. price is too much.

bah.never again.

no offense, Aly. :B

Got home at 11 plus, Loeiloei was so excited she insisted on jumping everywhere for 5 minutes.

then phone.. change memory card. and voila, C902.

Sexy right. i know.

k la. it's regular. just the type i want. reg. ole. joe.

Working tomorrow *inserts jiao-bin* confirm half sleeping on feets.

i've been having dbl eyelids for a couple of days already. i wonder why.

Dorothy texted me from Batam just now :B she's stuck indoors with the rain outside, like me at Bugis earlier. hehe.

Steven called from Tekong. talktalktalktalktalk. phone call cut. hahahaha.

Isaac wanna psycho me to eat and grow fat *glowers in his general direction* evil biker. He's the ultimate baichi.

ISAAC said (01:31):
byebye
nite
sleep early
eye bag
Eliz. said (01:31):
HAHA
ISAAC said (01:31):
panda eye
hahah
nite :]
Eliz. said (01:31):
shen jing bing.

Baichi right?

Shawn: OUR SCHEDULES ARE SO OFF. I LOVE BLUE TOO. CAN YOU TELL?

The Giver is on my mind. tx, babe. hahaha.

Natalie dee rocks my sock. one sock.

Tired. love the new phone. so excited. BYE.

Memento mori.

Labels: MSNing ^-^, Out., Work :0

Saturday, February 21, 2009, 01:22

No more.

Just got back from LOT 1. Watched the coolest show on earth, starring the hottest chap E.V.E.R.

BRAAAAD. So hot. omgooon. aly and i were like whispering 'oh ma ga, so hot...!' to each other. yeah. movie was 166 minutes long. in th theatre, as i was nua-ing, i was thinking idlely: oh man... three hours watching brad pitt.. for nine fifty... not too baaaaaaaaaad after-all!

though technnically it's not 3 hours, i know. it's 2 hours.. plus. but that's how my thoughts run, in round sum. brad pitt's damn hot. half-way thru' movie i got calls and texts, from mom, sissy and Qamarul. hahaha. asking me what time am i gonna be home, am i gonna be joining the badminton game, and asking me to watch tv. (:

So after th movie, we went to chill at mcCafe (not the nicest location, but the only place for coffee), and chatted about.. everything. and time bloody flew. the next time-check showed that an hour and a half had gone by. like. woah, fast? after than we left the cafe, and wandered to the MRT to check timing for last train and all.. then we sat outside the cafe and cont'd talking/ singing songs ._. hahah. random. keane.

We are defined by opportunities, even the ones we miss.

Tinkertonkertink. i wanna watch slumdog, yeah. new in town, too. HMMMMM.

yeah. brought shorts and slip slops from cotton on. and the bag for charity. and. hair clips. rubber bands. thaaaaaaaaat's all. bye!

Words forming on my tongue, pushing out on my lips, but failing to escape thru my mouth. eyes that cannot meet yours. hands that moved away. shoulders that stood stiff. fingers taut. thoughts running, running far, far away, away from you. as the physical cannot. pretense is the new thing, and fatigue is the new mask, lies the new truths.

but you dont know.

Labels: Out., What i want.

Monday, February 9, 2009, 14:27

Not my time, nor yours.

So i went to Eastcoast for overnight barbeque last saturday. you know when one doesnt have his or her own bed, one never sleeps well. i slept in the sleeping bag, in the tent, for 6 hours, on and off. slept at 2 plus, rudely awaken at 6 by my daddy's loud voice, slept back.. and slowly woke up at nine thirty. bloody hell. so tiring, had natural sleep(less)-induced double eyelids for the Sunday. not to mention the body aches. ahh. a teen's day away from home.

sleeping on little random pieces of rocks.. nice. Not.

one thing's nice though, the tent i slept in. this beautiful kid's tent, so bright and happy. was so happy when my sissy gave the tent up to me.. until i went in and saw tt there was plenty of sand, jere and eugene's ploy. peeved by the fact that the tent is shaped for nice short kids, not one taller, albeit not by much, teenager of seventeen. love the top of the tent though:

Nice, no? pretty black and white pattern i stared at in the morning.

yeah. then i had to leave, go home at eleven, because i had work at blsc at one. was sooooo tired. after work ended (at ten pm, no less), i went home with zhixian and alan, showered, and slept promptly at midnight. woke up twelve hours later :B. kena ribbed by isaac:

Ω says (13:36):
siala
Ω says (13:36):
u online in the morning sia
Eliz the meaner. says (13:36):
whaaaaaaaaaaaat. cannot ah hahaha
Ω says (13:37):
go sleep la

T.T very random, since for a fact one thirty-six is AFTERNOON, NOT MORNING.

i think sleep is such a... priceless gem.

Working later =\ again, and again. but for the money, i'll zip up my lips and shut up. (:

POKER FACE.

actually poker face has got similar elements to just dance. it like.. quite a replica. but yeh. just dance is nicer.

just did a facebook note. quite a joke. hahaha.

Still love eastcoast despite the complains i just made (:

Labels: Happypost, MSNing ^-^, Out., PICTUREZ., Songcraze, Weh random :D, Work :0

Saturday, January 17, 2009, 23:03

TX FR TH MMRS, EVN THO THY WRNT SO GRT!

just got home.

what a nice day. went to malaysia with mom, chrisbabe, jeredarlin and py.

sioke.

went to citysquare, bought a pair of shoez. yeah~

nothing else caught my eyes, and we were rushing quite a bit, so yeah. just a pair of shoes. but quality time spent with family! had a singfest with jeredarlin- he's high on thnks fr th mmrs by fall out boy, and scars by papa roach.

he's so cool right :] coolest 10 years old kiddo ever. i'm introducing to him more edgy songs. hahahaha. reconnected with chrisbabe, havent been out with her since forever. finally seeing her for hours on end, instead of occasional glimpse at 2 am. very nice to see her loose and relaxed. dorothy didnt come along, she went to a chalet! big-fat-AWWWW. ): she should have came along. but ah well, she's enjoying herself too, so it's good (:.

Read something interesting. look:

We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us. But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.

True..innit.

I know i'm random.

after steamboat for dinner, i walked home with jere, and i piggy-back him for less then a minute- then his psp fell out of his pocket, and all the parts came out. HAHAHA. he was mock-screaming lor. siaokia. then we built a 'tent' on the bed, and i hid inside while he build the tent.. then jumped on the tent.. meaning on me. so we had a crazy shout fight scream yell pillow fight.

Ahhhhhhhhhh.

so tired.

must sleep soon. ciao! <3.

Rule #1: be content with what you have.

ps.: oh man! my work schedule next week's so crazy! i've got like. 6 straight days! (secretly happy because of the higher pay) *evil smile*

shoutout: JASMINE TAY LU KOOL. IM NOT EMO. OKAY. :D I'M THE HAPPIEST GIRL IN JURONG KAY?! si baluku T.T love you anyway! <3.

Labels: Happypost, Out., Weh random :D

Friday, January 9, 2009, 00:18

Burn time..

Met lin this afternoon for a lunchdate. at jp. wandered thru the basement for 10 minutes, and eventually settled for a random japanese restaurant with below average quality of food. everything with excess salt, with only the terriyaki chicken tasting good. bah.

craving for pasta. ^-^

gonna be meeting aly for late lunch/early dinner kind of thing. Thinking of location =\ near or far?

maybe causeway point.. maybe. or maybe somewhere further.

see first laaaaaaaaaaaa.

Looking at Recipes now (: maybe i'll cook tomorrow. bye.

Labels: Out.

Tuesday, December 30, 2008, 01:11

Emotions

First, Gladness came by and sat beside my self. soon after having her close by for a long period of time, i began to treat her as part of the deco and no longer treat her with significance- and when she faded away, i didn't realize- until Annoyance came by and sat in her sit.

*****

So i went to malaysia today, went to Tesco, wanted to get some stuffs ( shoes. bag. clothes etc.) but we were in a hurry and did not had time to browse. sad to say. so i came home empty handed.

dad said he'd bring me and sissy to vivo/ plaza sing. if we wanna, tomorrow ( technically, later)

*****

Tsk. cant help but feel a little frustrated. things are not going the way i wanted it to, but fuck, that's life. feeling very low, like underground low. kept my earsplugged onto mpsan's music, hoping to feel a little reprive from my feelings. (yes, too strong a word, wdv.) mind tend to wander when there's silence, and silence is never louder when you're travelling and when you prone to tune out to noise.

i put on a mask, every single day.

eliz be happy. dont think too much, and rest well. oh, and my eyes is getting better too! for anyone wanting to know.

eliz craves for nike hoodie. fox hoodie. ipod. more hoodies. purse. nike tote/ gym/ club bag. cotton on slip slops. sleep. peep toes. tees. jeans. shorts. converse shoes. mushroom soup. pizza hut. pineapple tarts. rainbow socks. ballet flats.

and sambal chaofan.

As easy as one, two, twenty-five.

Steven asked me what's with 25.

I said: because things are never as easy and one, two, three.

Labels: Emorant =\, Hookies., Out., Rant., Songcraze, Stan speaking :D

Friday, December 26, 2008, 01:46

Genuine happiness, affirmative.

I love messy photo posts (:

In total, i got

Nike duffle bag from big sist
'ELIZ' bracelet from second sist
Ring from 'Best (k la. i kind of claim it as mine after i saw how nice it looked.)
Cat pouch from me to me ._.
'E' letter from Jonsuperman.
Baby eeyore from Lincoln.
Kitkat from Doreen
Chuppachup from Bernice.

and yeah. i think that's about all. dont think i missed anything!

Gambled just now (we gamble every at festive celebration) and won some buckz. Hohoho. Banlat ah. Blackjack-ed twice.. or was it three times.? idk

was a great day. fullstop.

after xmas mass ytd, went to meet jon, then we went for his breakfast-lunch-dinner-cum breakfast (blinner?) and my dinner-cum-breakfast ^-^ then after eating, we sat at mcD and chatted..until morning. then he sent me home, i slept and woke up with the house full of people!! celebration babeh.

yea~ xmas was great. superb. even though i didnt go for any countdown, it was very heartwarming at church, going everywhere, hugging everyone, and greeting strangers merry christmas ^-^

*****

sidenote: sirbest dl-ed live messenger plus for me ^^ so happy.

HANAH. IM THE LAST PERSON TO KNOW LA.

so happy (:

Labels: Happypost, Out., PICTUREZ.

Tuesday, December 23, 2008, 22:47

Out of my mind

And thus therefore, ends the day with endless ache in my bones.

spent the day with my scissors (shawn boy) at jp, walking around to find a.. mystery item. then we went to eat food.. plenty of food. i ate a lot today, eating when i'm hungry and when i'm not hungry. like... fcking a lot. i bought a new pouch for all my ningningnongnongs! yay (: so happy. celebrated aly's surprise birthday at vivo, haha pretty funny. we wanted to light the candle for the cake. then we realized that none of us are smokers. so noone had a lighter. so i had to go and borrow from a stranger sitting on the steps. haha. nice guys. thank goodness for him. then when we went up the stairs, aly saw us and was.. stunned. haha. her expression was priceless. hurhurhur.

soooo. quite a crazy day. pictures are all in aly's nikon/ canon. throughout the day, texted jonpig a.k.a superman, so fcking funny, he texted me halfway and fell asleep, what a pig. haha.

Your face, the face i thought i knew so well, was so different on the day, it was someone else, i reckon, with your face mask on with a twist.

Troubled times, troubled mind. dont know what to do, how to tell them how i feel, how to tell them what i wanna say. what i think comes out different, words i say cut through them like the sharpest knife. when i pause to ponder, words that i say revealed their double edginess, fufilling their roles, and i get cut too. wrong thing said at the wrong time, impulse, impulse, impulse. followed by regrets? aplenty.

Your words with hidden messages, your hints i catch but they slipped thru' my fingers like water would. i try to grasp their meaning, sadly, to no avail. tell me straight, what you say? running out of my mind.

Labels: Out.

Tuesday, December 2, 2008, 19:01

Twenty-three days.

What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

(: just gym-ed with aly for twenty minutes. couldnt cont'd because i forgot to bring covered shoes ._. how dyou spell dumb? then we went to KFC. HAHHAHAHAHHAA. siaokia. So we talk talk, chat chat, and talk about work and all la. fun (: gym was fun. saw some perky butts. HEHE. Gyming again soon. owe it to her. haha.

Oh I had a lot to say
Was thinking on my time away
I miss you and things weren't the same
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die

Sooo. i have no work today.. oh i have work tomorrow! :D

i wanna work on Sunday too :0. Sundays damn fun. everyone goes crazy and all. damn fun.

going to shoe/ lanyard shopping tomorrw with Aly again ._. need.shoes.pronto.

Germaine's lanyard damn pretty! but it's expensive laaaaaaaaaa. $10+.

NEW SHOES, HERE I COME.

Sec one camp, oh sec one kids. dont eat me up okay. was i very difficult to handle when i was thirteen? hope not. :|

Christmas is coming. SHUANG MAN.

Labels: Out., What i want.