Woke up at 2 today, fucking shiok to sleep for long hours.. but i did wake up in the morning, my body clock working. or was it the alarm? i think i forgot to turn off the alarm. heh. but fell promptly back to sleep after that la. havent slept like that since TWO weeks ago. Ultimate TGIF. or, Thank God it's LD. Same difference since they fall on a friday :D

Momma's birthday's coming! two weeks to go (: i love my mom. 

Assignments.. Nas said there's not much, but i keep thinking there's things i've forgotten. hate that nagging voice in the back of my head. i've been wasting today on youtube, msn, wiki, whatnot. wasted a day. 

Work yesterday.. was quite siao. went to supper with my KE LICK afterwards :D yes ah. kelick is colleague, dunno why they must make it sound so weird. KE LICK AH! Isaac and Weihao keep bombing me with questions (both having just undergone the process of a breakup...so ya). I wont actually mind them asking questions, but they dont even give me a chance to answer them. they're just irritating me lah. mei you ban fa. so annoying. one on the left one on the right. Isaac say nx time bring more friends, then one infront, one behind, so that i'll have no way of escaping their persistant annoying questions.

Loeiloei have been caught digging away at my bag under the bed a few times already. dunno what she digging also. so noisy it woke me up. siaokia. 

Stargaze.

gonna get some work done. BAI!

Hafizzzzzzzzzzz. Nas asked me to put this picture up on me blog. heh heh heh.

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Dont know what to say. 

Going to start school in.... days. no more three months to go. no more slackey days at home. no more. 

Oh my fuck. so emo. slit wrist and die, kay? 

♥Jonathan rhys meyers.

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Isn't blue cool? (: i like i love~

Four ten. cant sleep. reading happy potter. harry potter. 

Sunday ah. 

Ordered C902 already, ordered it in black and it'll be here on Saturday (hehheh. sexcited.)

Sibeh sian, everytme i see W910i. 

Insomnia?

Dl-ed the latestest version of windows live. not impressed much. heh. cuz i havent seen the features yet. 

Sissy heading to Batam tomorrow

. Thinkthinkthink. 

You're my new obsession.

xoxo.

my mp3 revived!

revived! oh my goon. so bloody happy. and i was just complaining to the Samsung people. then i plug it to my laptop. and. the screen lit up!!!!!!!!! cool or not!!!

k la. not cool. cuz mp3's been dead since i let it hear me say i'm going to get the ipod in a few days' time. so she, being a jealous mp3, died on me 30 minutes later. depriving me of any form of music on mrt/ bus rides for... 3 running days );

but it's back!!!!

and ipod might be here later/ tomorrow!!!! so excited.

regretting the purchase a wee bit. was wondering.. why red, again? :| CUZ IT'S COOL, DUH.

NAH. LET'S DROP THE REGRETS. AND CELEBRAT BECAUSE TODAY IS A MONDAY AND IM NOT AT SCHOOL, OR AT WORK!!!!!!! :D 

Work was damn fun yesterday. didnt notice how time flew.. cuz my phone was half dead the whole nine hours. and the fun people.. yeah. but all was well except one. 

moothaasshoo. fuck, what i do with whom is none of YOUR business, you dont have to CARE or give a HOOT, and say i was in the wrong, when the matter at hand's got no right and wrong, in the first place, WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU to say i'm wrong, my mother or his father? STICK YOUR UNECESSARY COMMENT UP YOURS.

How nice of me to save a whole paragraph for you.

This friday's 13th again ._. 

Left eye's got a swell. boo. 

Harrypotterharrypotterharrypotter.

BYE.

xoxo.

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i like the previous skin too.. and the one before. i just got. sick of them. so it's now Yellow's turn at center stage. pink. black. green. you'd know. if you frequent my blog.

Sigh. Eliz must be going mad, barking mad. she loves the new doggy. abso-blooming-lutely. When Eliz woke up at 10 am (prouds) and was unable to find Loeiloei, she paniked, ransaked the house, checked every room, called mom, called dorothy, texted chris, look around more, went outside to the corridors, looked out the window, imagined Loeiloei running on the road, cars zooming here and there, paniked more, called dorothy more, chris called back, Eliz's voice almost broke down on her, chris promised to try dorothy's cell too, Eliz paced, tried to read a book, laze in bed, and when Eliz heard someone at the door and saw dorothy carrying Loeiloei, the relieve was astounding. yeah, she was quite pissed at dorothy for not telling her, but realized, too, that she hasn't got no nuts right to be pissed. so she went back to bed.. to read. 

Yeah. so doggy wasnt lost after all. i cant believe i'd believe that someone would steal the doggy. ._. i know, very silly. so lets change the topic. sigh.

Harry potter. im watching the whole. whole. whole. bloody. movie series. am i cool. ._. was waiting for the movie to load when i decided to change the blogskin :].

kay. movie's complete. ciao. 

work was cool today. Damien. sandy. melv. alfred. melv's crazy, really crazy. hahahaha. eh, cooperation to teh max k. he promote sim, i promote cell. yeh. 

well, i think, you're dumb. 

woke up at 10 am today, the earliest i have awaken in a loooong time. Qam countered with a 'i woke up at 9 am, that's the latest i've awaken in a long time.' bloody hell. hahaha.just when i was soooo proud of me ownself for waking up early. so i went for coffee at starbucks, saw Jacob at the counter! (: such a coincidence. second time i caught someone from church at starbucks. hee. i spilt Qam's caramel frappe. i enjoyed his mom's chocolate fudge cake. 

Female white maltese, newly adopted as loei loei by us (: poor loei loei was abandoned nearby JP. her face is. tear-ridden. and her fur is over grown. fucked-up asshole ex-owners. and by the way loei reacts to people, she was prolly mildly ill-treated too. fuck, make that strongly. she's the most timid doggie ever. i havent heard her bark or anything, and she's the sweetest thing. loei loei's heroine's dorothy (:

Hmm. 3.45 am. gotta go to bed soon.

Sunday was fine, Eliz had a lovely sleep. so lovely that she overslept, and woke up at twelve thirty in the noon, instead of 8 in the morning. yes, she also woke up at eleven because there was a malay wedding going on a stone's throw away, and the emcees and singers were warming up. eliz's mother was going on about the beautiful decorations... and pretty chairs. eliz is not amazed, because she saw how they stayed up all night long to get it done so prettily! three cheers for their energies. yes, on to the next topic. awaking at eleven, eliz saw that the silly red shit-ass mobile of hers was not charging. so she went to find another charger. and tried to charge the red W910i. to no avail. apparently, the phone was having her PMS, and decided to breakdown completely. no amount of curses, throws or frustration thrown against the red-ass mobile worked. so she had to borrow her mother's cool motorola flip phone. oh man. eliz want that phone too, she thinks. eliz misses church and all her churchmates a lot, but by not attending church, words means peanuts. her friend, lincoln, told her that God wants her back, but she's not very sure herself. she's just so.. off the path. heading into the forest. she doesn't know, either. so anyway, she went to work. she took bus 185, a bus she'd have to take on a daily basis in future. her eyes almost popped when she saw the fare. she like the long bus ride, btw. hate the long wait for the bus though. esp. in the persistent ziggy zaggy heat waves. she had a long think about everything and anything, letting thoughts past thru', letting imagination run wild. she was, at one point, imagining herself doing homework on the bus. now, how silly is that? recently, eliz has been writing a lot, be it typing on the key board, or writing on those unfinished foolscape. why, yesterday itself, she wrote three full pages, history's structured essay styled, worth of thoughts. at the end of it, her hands were trembling. so she arrived at Clementi a few minutes' late, to see Jon waiting at the bus stop. so they went off, to work. eliz was quite pissed today, because she had to work right smack outside the new mall at Clementi. but she got over it, and she's no longer pissed. she realized that the people are quite nice too, they brought chairs ov for them to sit. they also like her, they told her themselves. the new mall was.. cram. and haha, a sudden thought just passed thru' her mind. she suddenly remembered walking into Singtel, and all conversations stopping as they turned to stare at her and Jon. yeh. back to the point- what was it anyway? yeah. so eliz worked for X hours today, and didn't consume solid food for X hours. eliz is quite sure noone's reading at this point. she only ate a big fat sinful mcSpicy when she got home, which is so belardy sinful, she's so annoyed with herself. eliz suddenly missed those crazy math excercises ms chong used to give out, at bulk. eliz missed 4E6, too, despite all the wacky things that occured throughout. eliz is still eating, moving on to the next sin, chocs. yay. she's gonna have triple chin. haha. eliz is trying to forget. trying to remember. trying to grasp hold of the truth. trying to understand life. trying to accept life. trying to learn, trying to forgive, trying to piece the puzzle pieces together, trying to acquire knowledge, trying to stop, trying not to cry. the thing that may seem so minute to one, may be of utmost significance to another. eliz is so tired, at the age of seventeen, so tired. hiding lies, secrets, secrets, secrets. how do you keep a secret? do you know how to hide?

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So i went to malaysia today, went to Tesco, wanted to get some stuffs ( shoes. bag. clothes etc.) but we were in a hurry and did not had time to browse. sad to say. so i came home empty handed. 

dad said he'd bring me and sissy to vivo/ plaza sing. if we wanna, tomorrow ( technically, later) 

*****

Tsk. cant help but  feel a little frustrated. things are not going the way i wanted it to, but fuck, that's life. feeling very low, like underground low. kept my earsplugged onto mpsan's music, hoping to feel a little reprive from my feelings. (yes, too strong a word, wdv.) mind tend to wander when there's silence, and silence is never louder when you're travelling and when you prone to tune out to noise. 

i put on a mask, every single day.

eliz be happy. dont think too much, and rest well. oh, and my eyes is getting better too! for anyone wanting to know.

eliz craves for nike hoodie. fox hoodie. ipod. more hoodies. purse. nike tote/ gym/ club bag. cotton on slip slops. sleep. peep toes. tees. jeans. shorts. converse shoes. mushroom soup. pizza hut. pineapple tarts. rainbow socks. ballet flats. 

and sambal chaofan.

Steven asked me what's with 25. 

I said: because things are never as easy and one, two, three.

dogs and other animals, too are being killed for their meat/ fur.

i've heard comments like this: 'that (certain exotic animal)'s meat hor, taste like chicken ley!'

i mean. if i taste the same, just eat chicken meat.

not that it's any less cruel.

maybe if the world just go vegetarian.

sigh.

raccoon doggies. lifted out of its cage with the use of a metal wired noose pole, it will then be slammed against it's own cage. then left on the ground to bleed. then it's paws get chopped off. while they are alive. skin is then removed, and carcass is thrown away. humane? not.

dogs have boiling water poured down their throats to kill bacteria inside/ kill them. then they are left to die like that. 

once again, i ask: where's the love?

fucking assholes. killing animals for own profit. go fucking straight to hell to endure the same thing, i think you cant even get through it half way. 

some animals are ALIVE even after they are skinned. read that. 

FUCK THESE ASSHOLES WHO KILL FOR SELFISH REASONS. FUCK THEM ALL.

my dad once brought me to a frog farm. we went to see the frog slaughterhouse. till now, i've never tasted frogs. 

'bury an acorn, and it explodes into an oak tree. bury a sheep, and it decays.' - Benjamin zephaniah

imagine being trapped into a cage, crammed space, with three other people squashed with you. water is not provided, and food is human innards. every single day, you remain in the same position. everyday, you cant protest. everyday, you grow weaker. eventually, you die. or not, you get tortured to death. imagine that.

as well as:

tomorrow's the I'm a Child of God retreat. pretty excited/nervous/cranky/jubilant/mixed. soo.

expect blog to be empty until monday, i know no one will diligently check on a daily basis so no one will care pretty much if i disappear for three/ four days. so then, bye croaks. i'll upload anything interesting asap. if i feel like it, that is. 

meanwhile:

It's All About the Shoes and An Imaginary Life and Spider. To keep you entertained, one clip per day.

or all at once. i like them all, but duh, not by me.

KUA. <3.

Anyway! gonna steal from my sissy's colourful blog (: despite her warning of DONT STEAL FROM MY COLORFUL BLOG. i'm still gonna do it :D 

HAKUNA MATATA!!!!

damn it. that song can cheer me up. oh, i love lion king OKAY. 

especially after watching the lion king 1 1/2!!!

damn bloody funny. must watch.

play it if you wanna (: 

okay!

so anyway! i woke up early today : D sick of the same old routine of waking up at two.. watching 命中注定我愛你, eating... watching... eventually sleeping at three plus ):

SO SIAN. 

so i changed!

a wee bit. i guess. woke at nine plus, showered, cooked, and watched 命中注定我愛你.

OKAY LA I KNOW. NOT MUCH OF A CHANGE.

will be studying later. COMBI SCIENCE MCQ TOMORROW *Cue screams of horror*

sibeh sian. kindof tired. but feeling pretty glad that i woke up early!

I've been listening to Jazz. *Gasp from nowhere*

Natalie Cole, Nat King Cole. Duets (: So romantic hor, if they are not father and daughter. hehe. but they sound damn damn damn good! 

So today's a day of songs that makes me happy! : D Zai jian, da jia!

Cecilia's flying off to India, Shang Hai and Prague on different days ):

So busy. haha. no more crazy night walk. She's gona fly to each destination and back. like. WHAAAAAAAAAT? 

must take one jab for each trip leh. haha.

 okay enough already. back to Taiwandrama. here i come! ha.

last night, just as i was drifting to slumberland, i remember like, oh shit, i owe Cecilia $2. must remember to return her tomorrow. then i fell asleep.

others night, i make list of what to buy.. bags, watches, colour, design, all in, but by morning i'd have forgottened. i'll be making lists in my head, like, what needs to be done, whatsoever. siao one.

kay i also dont know the purpose of this post. prolly to let people know that im suffering from lack of sleep and overactive imagination.. or something like that.

DYLAN'S SO HANDSOME IM GONNA DREAM OF HIM TONIGHT.