jolly fine Bandyaids.
Wednesday, December 31, 2008,
01:33
Black galore.
:D.
Woke up at 2 today, by a call from mom saying that dad'll be coming home in an hour or so to bring us all out. so i woke my sissy, then we prep-ed and waited for dad to come along.
he came at 6. WTH. HAHAHAHA. we were all prepared, even my mom came home from work then he came back. brought us to plaza sing. and bugis street. & today's spending is sponsored by dad and mom! three cheers for them. and. i. brought a black polo tee. two black hairbands. black top from cotton on. black shorts. black girl boxershorts. black umbrella. and. a dress. and an off-white shorts.
Walau eh. almost all black. ^-^ wo xi huan.
Then.. tmr gg to JP with Aly, most prolly gonna get the hoodie from Fox. and i'm gonna find the Nike hoodie. sumpa.
and i need new tees. ):
and shoes! plenty of shoes. ohshit. forgot to get slippers!
tsk!
Labels: Happypost, What i want.
Tuesday, December 30, 2008,
01:11
Emotions
First, Gladness came by and sat beside my self. soon after having her close by for a long period of time, i began to treat her as part of the deco and no longer treat her with significance- and when she faded away, i didn't realize- until Annoyance came by and sat in her sit.
*****
So i went to malaysia today, went to Tesco, wanted to get some stuffs ( shoes. bag. clothes etc.) but we were in a hurry and did not had time to browse. sad to say. so i came home empty handed.
dad said he'd bring me and sissy to vivo/ plaza sing. if we wanna, tomorrow ( technically, later)
*****
Tsk. cant help but feel a little frustrated. things are not going the way i wanted it to, but fuck, that's life. feeling very low, like underground low. kept my earsplugged onto mpsan's music, hoping to feel a little reprive from my feelings. (yes, too strong a word, wdv.) mind tend to wander when there's silence, and silence is never louder when you're travelling and when you prone to tune out to noise.
i put on a mask, every single day.
eliz be happy. dont think too much, and rest well. oh, and my eyes is getting better too! for anyone wanting to know.
eliz craves for nike hoodie. fox hoodie. ipod. more hoodies. purse. nike tote/ gym/ club bag. cotton on slip slops. sleep. peep toes. tees. jeans. shorts. converse shoes. mushroom soup. pizza hut. pineapple tarts. rainbow socks. ballet flats.
and sambal chaofan.
As easy as one, two, twenty-five.
Steven asked me what's with 25.
I said: because things are never as easy and one, two, three.
Labels: Emorant =\, Hookies., Out., Rant., Songcraze, Stan speaking :D
Monday, December 29, 2008,
00:57
Looking back, i think twice, i think three times, i thought harder, and thought again, it's after all, nothing much, just a game.
*****
Work @ BLSC again, as of almost every Sunday since i started working a month and a half ago. hmmm. gonna be getting my pay soon i guess. pretty glad. wanna get a new black plain to the max hoodie from Fox. HMMM. still deciding. also aiming for a Nike hoodie. and a pink one.. from Fox again.
SIGH.
I CANT FIND A PICTURE TO DISPLAY MY LATEST CRAVES.
whathf.
*****
My dad. just walked to where i'm sitting. and put a container of pineapple tarts infront of me and say: left three more. eat.
): He knows my weakness.
*****
Yuhuh. still searching. seems like.. i'm a fcking internet noobie.
so i shall go to bed. bai.
Labels: Hookies., The Whine, What i want.
Friday, December 26, 2008,
01:46
Genuine happiness, affirmative.
I love messy photo posts (:
In total, i got
- Nike duffle bag from big sist
- 'ELIZ' bracelet from second sist
- Ring from 'Best (k la. i kind of claim it as mine after i saw how nice it looked.)
- Cat pouch from me to me ._.
- 'E' letter from Jonsuperman.
- Baby eeyore from Lincoln.
- Kitkat from Doreen
- Chuppachup from Bernice.
Gambled just now (we gamble every at festive celebration) and won some buckz. Hohoho. Banlat ah. Blackjack-ed twice.. or was it three times.? idk
was a great day. fullstop.
after xmas mass ytd, went to meet jon, then we went for his breakfast-lunch-dinner-cum breakfast (blinner?) and my dinner-cum-breakfast ^-^ then after eating, we sat at mcD and chatted..until morning. then he sent me home, i slept and woke up with the house full of people!! celebration babeh.
yea~ xmas was great. superb. even though i didnt go for any countdown, it was very heartwarming at church, going everywhere, hugging everyone, and greeting strangers merry christmas ^-^
*****
sidenote: sirbest dl-ed live messenger plus for me ^^ so happy.
HANAH. IM THE LAST PERSON TO KNOW LA.
so happy (:
Labels: Happypost, Out., PICTUREZ.
Wednesday, December 24, 2008,
01:47
Genuine happiness
Because i'm happy, i'm gonna blog a sappy/ happy/ i love the world post.
aly and lin: the best girlfriends you can get. they are bitches, and proud to be bitches. they cam-whore every once in a while, and most of all, they love me!
i hope they do.
HEH. anyway! tx to them, that i'm the eliz i am today. to having a semi-active gymmate (aly) and lunchdate (lin) im pretty grateful. idk why i keep blogging today also. it's two am in the morning. i love sky fm.
dorothy and chris: the bestest of the bestestest sisters i can get. even though we often fight, we always understand/ withstand each other better after quarrels. sooooo. i love my sissies! for being my mountain, being my shadow, being my atm, being my wake up call, being my doting sister. AI LERVE YEEEEW.
dad and mom: for parenting me. it's a tough job, and they could've given up, but never did they ever throw the job aside, always striving on to bring up three girls. after so long, they still remain loving, to all of us and to each other! AI AI KAY!!! <3
past friends: for ever crossing my path, being once my friend, tx. though we may not be on speaking terms now, i'm glad for at least, once upon a time, we were. tx plenty!
strangers: for helping me, helping me pick up my stuffs, smiling at me when i'm down, for babies guggling at me, waving their rattles at me. for lending me things. THANK YOU.
THANKYOUGOD, THANKYOUWORLD, ILOVEYOUALL. I'M SO SAPPY.
******
Jon superman just reminded me that my bday's 17 days away. HELLYEAH. i'm turning 17 in 17!!!!!!!!
Labels: Happypost
Tuesday, December 23, 2008,
22:47
Out of my mind
And thus therefore, ends the day with endless ache in my bones.
spent the day with my scissors (shawn boy) at jp, walking around to find a.. mystery item. then we went to eat food.. plenty of food. i ate a lot today, eating when i'm hungry and when i'm not hungry. like... fcking a lot. i bought a new pouch for all my ningningnongnongs! yay (: so happy. celebrated aly's surprise birthday at vivo, haha pretty funny. we wanted to light the candle for the cake. then we realized that none of us are smokers. so noone had a lighter. so i had to go and borrow from a stranger sitting on the steps. haha. nice guys. thank goodness for him. then when we went up the stairs, aly saw us and was.. stunned. haha. her expression was priceless. hurhurhur.
soooo. quite a crazy day. pictures are all in aly's nikon/ canon. throughout the day, texted jonpig a.k.a superman, so fcking funny, he texted me halfway and fell asleep, what a pig. haha.
Your face, the face i thought i knew so well, was so different on the day, it was someone else, i reckon, with your face mask on with a twist.
Troubled times, troubled mind. dont know what to do, how to tell them how i feel, how to tell them what i wanna say. what i think comes out different, words i say cut through them like the sharpest knife. when i pause to ponder, words that i say revealed their double edginess, fufilling their roles, and i get cut too. wrong thing said at the wrong time, impulse, impulse, impulse. followed by regrets? aplenty.
Your words with hidden messages, your hints i catch but they slipped thru' my fingers like water would. i try to grasp their meaning, sadly, to no avail. tell me straight, what you say? running out of my mind.
Labels: Out.
03:34
Love, absence of love.
Just watched a video of rabbits being killed for their furs. extremely cruel. do the workers have feelings? human.. killing rabbits simply to wear them on your body. it takes 30-40 rabbits' fur to make one single coat. imagine wearing a beautiful white coat.. made of dead animals. just the idea that you're wearing dead animal's gross enough. further more. it's by several big brands, one of them being giorgio armani. For those lazy to view the video: rabbits are given electric shock treatment that fails to kill them fully, rendering them paralysed but fully aware of whatever's happening. next, they are hung upside down by one foot, then their neck is slit. they are seen twitching even as blood pour out of their necks, their eyes wide open. i've always thought that rabbits do not make any sounds, but after watching the video, i'm amazed. to hear a rabbit screaming away. it's just heartless and merciless. if you give me a fur coat, i wont even wear it. i agree with them: no matter what, fur looks best on it's original owner. just wear/ use artificial fur! it's fake, duh, and rabbits/ animals are not killed for nothing!
dogs and other animals, too are being killed for their meat/ fur.
i've heard comments like this: 'that (certain exotic animal)'s meat hor, taste like chicken ley!'
i mean. if i taste the same, just eat chicken meat.
not that it's any less cruel.
maybe if the world just go vegetarian.
sigh.
raccoon doggies. lifted out of its cage with the use of a metal wired noose pole, it will then be slammed against it's own cage. then left on the ground to bleed. then it's paws get chopped off. while they are alive. skin is then removed, and carcass is thrown away. humane? not.
dogs have boiling water poured down their throats to kill bacteria inside/ kill them. then they are left to die like that.
once again, i ask: where's the love?
fucking assholes. killing animals for own profit. go fucking straight to hell to endure the same thing, i think you cant even get through it half way.
some animals are ALIVE even after they are skinned. read that.
FUCK THESE ASSHOLES WHO KILL FOR SELFISH REASONS. FUCK THEM ALL.
my dad once brought me to a frog farm. we went to see the frog slaughterhouse. till now, i've never tasted frogs.
'bury an acorn, and it explodes into an oak tree. bury a sheep, and it decays.' - Benjamin zephaniah
imagine being trapped into a cage, crammed space, with three other people squashed with you. water is not provided, and food is human innards. every single day, you remain in the same position. everyday, you cant protest. everyday, you grow weaker. eventually, you die. or not, you get tortured to death. imagine that.
Labels: Rant.
01:21
Happy birthday.
To a friend i've know for six years, a girl i hold close to my heart,
a birthday wish i dedicate, sixteen years she had walked on despite hurdles thrown in her way.
i wish her wisdom to choose what she really needs and not what she wants,
i wish her understanding and ability to sympathise with people,
i wish her love in her life, in every aspect.
to dearest alicia, happy birthday.
Monday, December 22, 2008,
19:55
Tanz'nites, are you ready!!!!!
Hmmmm.
ANE camp is over ):
Quite sad.. but it had to end la. i couldnt last another day without sleep.
Tanzanite's mu group name, felicia and kok heng my GL. there were 13 in my group. so big 0.o
I missed the Cheers competition and the skit.
SHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET.
Rushed for work on the last day, wasnt aware that i had work (intended to go home and have a sleepfest-cum-maraton after ANE, but.. well.)
didnt sleep on the last night, stayed up to chit chat with isac and dinie, and some other people. wore my contact lenses until 8 am, then i went to remove it and went back to chat.
then after work (10pm) i went home... shower, and saw that my left eye is reddish. like. a spot of blood. showed my dad and mom.
next day, (today) got up ar 4pm. hehe. sleepfest. remembered my eye so i checked to see if it's gone.
but NO. there was a bigger spread of blood. eww.
my uncle said my eye's blood vessel could've burst. sigh.
the camp was really good. (:
Friday, December 19, 2008,
01:04
On a straight line that will never end
Oh man. as you can see. wake up early plan died in the noon.
Wells.
tomorrow is a die die must to wake up early. ANE Camp @ NP. Hohoho. Meeting Linbean and the rest at McD tmr morning (inserts SHITDIE face) and im not asleep. must get morning dose of redbullz. SIGH. scaredley. whatifidontmakefriends?
whatif. islipandfallanddie.
whatif.iateacockroach.
whatifigrowfat.
HAHAHA.
damn. who cares.
Have been snacking on Munchy's wafer cube. damn shiok. just kept popping them into my mouth.. sin after sin after sin.
*****
Hmmmmm. camp leh. again. must. wake. up. at. seven. thirty. Feel like running. sigh. anyone up to it? shake fats off.
Ciao. dont expect to see me until... sunday night/ monday noon.
gonna miss church again, DIE LOR. they'll cold me. three weeks in a row. =\.
Fame and fortune, fine and dine. make all form of time divine.
wth?
Labels: Camp:D
Wednesday, December 17, 2008,
16:38
Your arms like towers, tower over me.
Because good songs are meant to be shared.
Labels: Songcraze
16:16
Flow, flower? Cow, cower?
Because with these pictures sitting beside me, their presence growing bigger by the minute ominuously, i couldn't ignore them anymore. A picture made in black and white, only to serve its purpose in telling me how old these pictures are. and how forgotten.
SAIGH.
I'm gonna wake up early tomorrow. and if i've succeeded, i'll be blogging at nine am.
ciao.
*****
Jonathan and KJ both from HG ley. walau e. whr got so qiao one.
Labels: Weh random :D
02:06
There's a first time for everything.
Waiting for a movie to load while i blog about today (:
:D
Work was pretty fun and time flew by pretty quickly. made some minor mistakes, felt guilty for a while, then i swore never to make the mistake again. With loud speakers blasting out your favourite songs on your MP-SAN, time'd fly quickly for you too. yay to speakers and playlists. AND. GUESS WHAT. KJ'S FROM HG TOO. WTF. so now
there's 3 ex-HGians. MAN. Small country, with everyone being interlinked. SMALLWORLDMAN. so KJ and i were complaining about being hungry, so we went to makan after work. ._.
and guess what.
I'm in love with McD's apple pie. KJ's fault. He brought me to McD. I never tried it before, so i never thought it'll be nice. hahah in fact everytime i see my sissy eat an apple pie i'd be quite disgusted.
Sooooo. apple pie! Woooo. <3.
After supper/ dinner, got home and Mineswept with Shawny/ bladder/ scissors.
And it's my new favourite game. Side along side with the FB games i play often. Scissors didnt wanna por me but he said i'm a fast learner. :D Yeah~.
New song in my head.
tx to my scissor sister. Shawwwwwwwwwwn.
though i dont like Akon's konvict intro being inside.
or whatev you call it.
and i just realize that she sounds like A Keys.
Labels: Songcraze, Weh random :D, Work :0
Tuesday, December 16, 2008,
15:10
I've just been thinking..
wouldnt it be nice if the months goes like this:
Anuary
Bebruary
Carch
Dapril
Eay
Fune
Guly
Haugust
Iptember
Joctober
Knovember
Lizember.?
I mean. alphabetical order would look so much better in a folder when you rearrange them according to file name.
Kay. random.
*****
few days ago i lost my sidebar gadgets ): so F sad. then i remembered them today, and just restored them 2 minutes ago. they look odd though ):
gonna go restart the laptoppie.
Monday, December 15, 2008,
23:29
Rockstar.
^-^
Today started at 12 noon. went to gym with Aly @ JE, then went to explore JP1. WALAUEH. BIG LIKE DUNNO WHAT LOR. FUCKING SHIOK.
hell yeah.
bought a long sleeve grey top, a brown shoulder bag, another lanyard, earsticks.
not much, but pretty satisfied. next i'll be looking for a new wallet, diary, shorts, jeans, shoes and... more bags.
HAPPY! go JP1.
saw some cute shops at JP1.. but very pricey. havent actually throughly explored the place though. must go again someday (: like. ONE BUS RIDE FROM MY HOUSE HELL YEAH :D
(:
shopping. i like. love the idea that my parents need not pay for my random craze buying. heh.
PARTYLIKEAROCKSTAR.
Silly song. stuck in my head after i see an auntie wearing a white tee with the words 'Rock star' on it.
ANE, EXCITED CAN. BLUE. BLUE. BLUE.
:D i love. JP. 1&2.
Friday, December 12, 2008,
19:31
Fly.
Intentionally hiding a truth.. is lying too.
Woke up late again, despite sleeping early last night. slept at one, but still woke up at three. then i did housework.. swept the floor halfway and decided not to sweep. the next time i looked at the clock, it was seven. time flew.
semi-packed the room, looks better but can be better.
Aiyo. craving for Fruitips blackcurrent fruit gums ):
expensive. shit. 7-11. over.priced.shit.
Eminem rocks.
L's got chiggen porkx. (cue loud gasp)
Aiyo. wanna wrap her up in plastic and bring her to the makan place we wanted to go on aly's birthday. shit. she better be well enough to go out.
shit= punctuation marks. noyoudontgedditdontpretendyoudo.
innit.
Labels: Songcraze
Thursday, December 11, 2008,
01:45
Coincidental.?
Went for supper with uncle and sister after work, walau eh eat like never eat burger before like that. had mcspicy.. doesnt taste as good as i expected. used to be spicier. bah. disappointment. green tea was.. diluted. sad. fries was grats :D hot and saltless. yay.
I'm feeling fat. damn fat.
):
Then i got home and got online. jonathan, my colleague, told me HE WAS FROM HG TOO!!! fking coincidental. damn. haha. we were caps-ing at each other like, siao can. haha.
he kept saying xue mei! xue mei! my xue mei!
HAHAHA. SIAOKIA.
then he told me that he hated singing national anthem, so in the morning he'd hide in the toilet
-.-
then
MORE RANDOM. he ask me to play pet society on FB.
just have to play and decorate your own houseand like go earn money and decorate yourselfand visit ppl house to earn money
WALAU EH. FKING FUNNY. The definition of pet society.. reduced into three lines.
Same school leh! walau. got so qiao or not.
hehe. momo and popo's 26th Wedding anniversary coming up! got food and drinks at me house. so happy. then many many people.
i like twilight! ^-^
With wings, i'll fly into the sky, when i'm angry, when i'm sad, when i'm lonely, when i'm depressed.
i'll fly high, one day on the tallest building, one day on the biggest tree, one day onto a cloud, watching stray planes fly by. i'll wave to the people inside, and they'll look amazed to see me there.
tomorrow, i'll fly and land on a tree, i'll have squirrels for friends and nuts for food. no one will notice me gone and when i'm back, no one will remember me.
of course, all these are just-
a dream.
dream of a girl, who cant be anymore normal.
(Come here and see me, swing me on my mood swing.)
did i make it that easy, for you to walk in and out of
my life? misery, misery.
Labels: Emorant =\, Fantasizing., MSNing ^-^, School. :), Songcraze, Weh random :D, Work :0
Tuesday, December 9, 2008,
22:18
Wishing for wings?
Excessive internet exposure.. cause tired eyes, numbed legs and prone to stone every other 5 minutes.
Bah. have been online since i woke up, on and off, in between meals, showers, going to JP, feeding of the pig, and everything else.
quite fun (:
chatting with the space-man and sky's pretty fun.. i hope space-man brings me along when he finally learns to fly. hmmm. i mean. i dont want wings! i just wanna fly! not in a plane, duh, but just fly. geddit?
on a second thought. pretty angel-like wings will be nice too. provided that there's an invisibility switch attatched with the wings. yes ah.
since im on the subject and in the mood to do it, why not go full out. i'd like to have a new face when i'm flying around the world, not totally different, just enough for people to think hey, that looks like a friend of mine... is that..? no la. eliz where got so pretty. walau eh. damn cute sia. that girl with wings. gotta call eliz.
YEAH.
HAHAHAHAA. IM HAVING FUN.
cont'd in my notepad! haha. not for public.
*****
(:
was on FB, as always. chanced upon this discussion of orbs in photographs.. mixed discussions, some saying that orbs represents guardian angels, whereas others says that orbs are bad stuffs. and otheres, still, says it's a speck of dust reflecting light.
piqued yet?
check out your photo albums. and find some orbs. mine dont have any, sadly, my guardian angel dont wanna take a photo with me. either that or im a clean freak.
SKY'S A PIG.
:D
Labels: Fantasizing., Happypost, Weh random :D
Monday, December 8, 2008,
14:36
Hope.
Sunday morning, rain is falling
Steal some covers share some skin.
*****
I love the rain baby. it's like, free AC can. very shiok .__. fan is almost not necessary.
so the retreat's over. and it was good, and bad, to some extent. good in a way that one of the boy in my group seemed changed, at least where i can see. glad! (:
retreat ended at twelve noon yesterday, and work starts at one noon ):
so i was rushing, and eating, and thanks to my parents, i wasnt late. sometimes i feel damn guilty about being so mean to them, not talking more, not being more.. bonded together. no matter how nice/ not nice i'm to my parents, they do their best to love and care for all of us.
guilt rush.
bah. enough of that. soppy stuff. not meant for public.
christmas is coming, the second candle is lit, two more to go.
work was fun yesterday. haha. colleague was commenting on the.. thigh size of some girl. he was like: i saw a girl with damn big thigh the other day.. some more wearing short shorts. felt like biting them. HAAHAAHAHA. FUCKING PSYCHO CAN.
feel like sleeping again =\
to sleep.. or not to sleep?
bah. bai poles. do mask.
Labels: Camp:D, Weh random :D, Work :0
Friday, December 5, 2008,
00:05
I'm a Child of God
Sick of the song. post simply so that that post will disappear into archive. heh.
as well as:
tomorrow's the I'm a Child of God retreat. pretty excited/nervous/cranky/jubilant/mixed. soo.
expect blog to be empty until monday, i know no one will diligently check on a daily basis so no one will care pretty much if i disappear for three/ four days. so then, bye croaks. i'll upload anything interesting asap. if i feel like it, that is.
meanwhile:
It's All About the Shoes and An Imaginary Life and Spider. To keep you entertained, one clip per day.
or all at once. i like them all, but duh, not by me.
Labels: Camp:D, Churching :0, Rant., The Whine
Wednesday, December 3, 2008,
23:51
Sky's wonder.
(:
I like today.
bought new shoes. uncle said very grandmotherly. >.<
but i like it a lot! idk why! haha.
and i bought a lanyard too! (finally(:) it's white, and it's got little umbrella's decorated on it. umbrelly's are in yellow, pink, blue and white ^-^
sho happy.
went to fareast and bugis junction.. for two items. heh. wanted to get earrings too. but dont have the time to find a decent pair. rushed back to boonlay for work.. and was late =\.
jason waited for half an hour because of me ): then we late tgt. HAHA.
then there's camp facil training tmr.. idk if i can wake up. eleven leh, kns. will do my bestest to wake up ):.
CHOIR!CHOIRCHOIRCHOIR. DAMNEXCITED.CHOIRXMASMASSCHOIRXMASXMAS!
Online? guess not. : |
Labels: Camp:D, Churching :0, Work :0
Tuesday, December 2, 2008,
19:01
Twenty-three days.
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
(: just gym-ed with aly for twenty minutes. couldnt cont'd because i forgot to bring covered shoes ._. how dyou spell dumb? then we went to KFC. HAHHAHAHAHHAA. siaokia. So we talk talk, chat chat, and talk about work and all la. fun (: gym was fun. saw some perky butts. HEHE. Gyming again soon. owe it to her. haha.
Oh I had a lot to sayWas thinking on my time awayI miss you and things weren't the same'Cause everything inside it never comes out rightAnd when I see you cry it makes me wanna die
Sooo. i have no work today.. oh i have work tomorrow! :D
i wanna work on Sunday too :0. Sundays damn fun. everyone goes crazy and all. damn fun.
going to shoe/ lanyard shopping tomorrw with Aly again ._. need.shoes.pronto.
Germaine's lanyard damn pretty! but it's expensive laaaaaaaaaa. $10+.
NEW SHOES, HERE I COME.
Sec one camp, oh sec one kids. dont eat me up okay. was i very difficult to handle when i was thirteen? hope not. :|
Christmas is coming. SHUANG MAN.
Labels: Out., What i want.